Fill in the Blank Friday:11/9/2012

1. I like puppy breath, sugar skulls, and pallets in the living room with my husband.

2. A goal of mine is to become a mother.

3. The last thing you would ever expect me to like (but I do) is probably Lil' Wayne, and maybe the Disney show Good Luck Charlie.

4. Some wise words that I adore are from the Bible, For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11. These words give me hope for a future healthy pregnancy, especially on days like today where that is all that I can think about.

5. Most mornings you will find me wide awake and ready for the day.

6. Right now I am super into Aztec print leggings!

7. Right now I am super over YOLO and people bashing our President.



   As I mentioned above my heart is heavy today. Thinking about the holidays makes me uneasy and sad. I'm sad because I want my May baby. I want to experience the holidays with a miracle growing inside of me. I want to post pictures on my instagram and Facebook of my expanding belly. I am being selfish for God had other plans for our baby Asher and for me. I do trust Him and believe in His love for me. For whatever reason today is just harder than yesterday but I know with time it will get better.

Currently I am...

  I got this idea from A Beautiful Mess.

READING: Blogs upon blogs!
THINKING ABOUT: My younger sister Caroline. Her wedding is next Sunday in Mexico. Unfortunately we will not be there becuase I was pregnant. I can't believe my family is growing up!

LOVING: Red Ribbon Week at school. I'm currently teaching in pink fluffy p.j's.
LOOKING FORWARD TO: My two year anniversary. Blake reminded me that it's in fact next Tuesday and that Halloween is Wednesday. Oh, this is my most favorite time of year.

WONDERING: When will be be 'cleared' to start trying for a family again. God is teaching me patience.
EATING: Loads and loads of pasta and foods that have practically know folic acid. It's junk food city over here in Texas at my house.

DISLIKING: Giving blood every other day... I have weak veins that collapse and it's excruciating to give even a drop!
HAPPY ABOUT: The kindness of strangers. I have felt an overwhelming since of love from my followers who are virtually strangers. If I am talking about YOU please know I have found comfort in your words, stories, and prayers. From the bottom of my heart I thank you.

You're next! What's currently going on with you?

Asher

   On September 7th 2012, our greatest dream came true; we made a baby. Yes, we've been trying for a very long time but with so many negative tests I forgot that one day it would actually be positive! Seeing those two pink lines instantly brought tears of happiness to my eyes. I then had to take a digital to see that word I wanted to be attached to for so long...Pregnant.
   Sadly, I must tell you that last Thursday we lost baby Asher. There are no words to comfort me and you can't truly know what the loss of a child feels like unless you have been in that situation. A person's a person no matter how small and although I am sad,  I am also happy for the time I was pregnant and for the life that was growing inside of me. Asher means fortunate; blessed. 
   There is still a long road of grief we must endure but God has a plan for us and with His blessing it can only get better.

"I fell in love with you while you were forming in my womb. Now I carry you in my heart instead of my arms."