Never Ever Ever Will I...

Linking up with Neely today for this too good to pass up linkup.

Here are a few things I will either never ever ever say or do:

-Give up my dream of becoming a mother.

-Get tired of how happy my frups are to see me when I get home.

-Thank God it's Monday!

-I love the Kardashians.

-Bagels sound like a horrible idea.

-I hate it when it rains.

-Getting wasted sounds awesome!

- Another Ryan Gosling movie...boring!

- Manners don't matter.

I can't think of any others today, but I am sure they will slowly come to me throughout today. I want to ask those of you reading to say a prayer for me tomorrow as I have a doctors appointment that I am a little nervous about. Thank you!

Weekend Updates

  I'm back after a few weeks away. We had an incredibly busy past two weeks and rather than update on every little detail I will let the pictures do that for me.

A spider bite on the bottom of my foot had me off my feet for a week.

We traveled to Dallas for Blake's sisters wedding!

I gave the STAAR test, so happy it's over.

I lightened a few ends of my hair in preparation for the summer!

Seriously this is the only picture from the wedding that we took. Classic.

The lovely couple and her brothers.

We of course went to our elementary school for photos. This is where my crush began!

Taking Time

   Life is beginning to get a bit busy for me and I won't be on blogger that much. I need to take a step back and give myself some time. My blogger feed is flooded daily with pregnancy announcements, baby updates, and right now I would just rather not put myself through that. You can still contact me through email, I am sure this won't be a long break, just a temporary leave. Until then, God bless.

Hey, It's Ok!

It's been a long time since I did a It's Ok post, so here you go!

It's Okay...

to be frustrated with my lack of progress in the gym (grrr)

to be so freaking ready for the end of school

that I had an actual coke yesterday...and Monday

to give yourself a break

to wish I could spend every single day with my nieces

to be a bit behind on my BSF homework

that next weekend is Blake's sisters wedding

to ask for prayers

to hear of a co-workers blessing and be envious

to be greedy about your weekends

Weekend Shenanigans 4/8/2013



   On Saturday my sister Elizabeth picked me up to shop and have a girls morning with her and baby Anna. Poor Anna woke up Friday with her eye swollen shut! Saturday she was looking and feeling a million times better so we ended up in San Antonio. We had a nice lunch at California Pizza Kitchen, the conversation was nice, the service was horrible. I was really surprised, my tostada pizza was delivered to me, cold, yuck! After blowing some bubbles I went home to be greeted by Blake waiting for me to go bike riding. We went to Cibolo Nature Center, where we were married, and found this secret spot. To me, it looks like we are at a lake, but we're not. Blake impressed me once again with his boarding skills! We finally went to the Boerne Starplex movie theatre on Saturday night, I have been looking forward to going for quite some time now. The movie we saw was Olympus Has Fallen, we enjoyed it. Sunday was spent being super lazy, which I prefer, and then we ended the weekend watching the ACM awards and a rerun of The Voice. Perfect weekend, I look forward to the next!

Breakdown

Today is just not my day. I can't pinpoint exactly one thing that is not going my way because there are several. Why can't this school year just be over and done with already? Do I have plans for the summer? Yes, plans to do nothing and get myself into shape. Right now, I am struggling. Life is difficult for me and I don't think that there is anyone who can relate to me, therefore I keep most of what I am feeling bottled up inside. I don't even have the guts to write about what it is exactly that is weighing so heavy on my heart. Why, for fear that someone I actually know will read this.

One thing I will share that will come as NO surprise to anyone reading this, is that I am frustrated that I am not pregnant. I can't explain what a failure it feels like. As I am ready to move forward with other options, Blake is not. I often forget that there are two of us going through this because I put the burden on myself. I cry. I research. I go through all of the emotions, for the both of us. Unless you've been there you can't understand.  I feel the most alone that I've ever felt. I don't want to give up, "I just wish someone would tell me, like, this is how the rest of your life should look"--Marnie. But, I realize this isn't going to happen, so I pray. I pray the same thing daily, I keep the faith that one day my prayers will be answered. I truly believe that God has a purpose and a plan for me, far greater than I could imagine. I at least still have some hope.

SPD: Zucchini Chips

Zucchini Chips

Original Pin:

My Version

 Mine clearly look nothing like the original. I don't know if I messed up baking them or what, but they were not crunchy, they were soft-ish. Clearly they weren't that bad though, because I ate them. The instructions were bake for 45 minutes at 225'. The recipe also cautioned not to let them sit out for to long before eating them as they could get chewy. Well, I didn't let them sit for long, and they were chewy. This could potentially be a pinterest fail, but hey, I still ate them!

Missing the New

   Lately I've been reminded that ignorance is bliss. It's no surprise that I have been struggling. There are many particular things that I've had a hard time accepting. Something that I miss is being new, new to something. For instance, when I began teaching I didn't really know how things worked. I wasn't ever worried about what others thought about my teaching style, about the way I looked, I wasn't ever afraid to speak up or speak out; that's completely changed. There is a bliss that comes along with not knowing certain things, or people for that matter. I began teaching never thinking I was being judged, and slowly over four short years that has become the opposite. I often catch myself worrying about what other people think about me. It's serves no purpose, and it has just changed me. I wish I was still that young, naive, new teacher. There is something so refreshing about being new to something and the ignorance that comes along with it. I can't come up with the correct way to articulate the feeling that I have, or a particular situation, so this will have to sufice for now. Am I the only person who feels this way?

Easter Weekend 2013

   We had a fantastic weekend full of sun, fun, and family. Blake, my best friend Linzie, and I drove down to Port Aransas early Friday morning to meet my parents at their beachfront place. The weather couldn't have been more perfect. We enjoyed boogie boarding, quality time with one another, and good food! Thank you again, Mom and Dad, ya'll are so generous! On Sunday morning we left super early to get back home to see my niece Riley, and her parents (of course).

  Poor Anna was sick all weekend and didn't want any visitors so she missed out on the egg hunt. It's only ok because the weekend prior I went to the city lake egg hunt with her! Feel better quick, Anna!