Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Missing the New

   Lately I've been reminded that ignorance is bliss. It's no surprise that I have been struggling. There are many particular things that I've had a hard time accepting. Something that I miss is being new, new to something. For instance, when I began teaching I didn't really know how things worked. I wasn't ever worried about what others thought about my teaching style, about the way I looked, I wasn't ever afraid to speak up or speak out; that's completely changed. There is a bliss that comes along with not knowing certain things, or people for that matter. I began teaching never thinking I was being judged, and slowly over four short years that has become the opposite. I often catch myself worrying about what other people think about me. It's serves no purpose, and it has just changed me. I wish I was still that young, naive, new teacher. There is something so refreshing about being new to something and the ignorance that comes along with it. I can't come up with the correct way to articulate the feeling that I have, or a particular situation, so this will have to sufice for now. Am I the only person who feels this way?


2 comments:

  1. I totally understand what you are saying! The new could really be applied to any part of your life, job, relationship, groups/activities that you are involved in.

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  2. I totally get this too! Teaching is tough on so many levels. I did not realize the judging either my first few years. Probably too overwhelmed by teaching. Working with women is always an adventure!

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