We Want to Know Wednesdays

 

1. If you could be any animal what would you be? A Maltese dog. I firmly believe that if they have great owners they in turn have wonderful lives. (at least I know mine do).

 

 

2. What is your favorite color and why? Turquoise. It was the main color for my sorority (ZTA), and it was also my grandmothers favorite color. I can't get enough turquoise stuff, ask my husband.

 

3. If you could only have one meal for a month what would you chose? I would choose my Quorn faux chicken, broccoli, and shells n' cheese.

 

4. What is your dream car? A white Cadillac SRX

 

5. If you could do anything right now, what would you do? I would honestly go back to bed and then spend the day cuddling with my frups and watching the shows saved on my DVR!

 

 

Happy Friday: Don't Care

 

 

 

This is me, today. I have so many things on my mind, and today is just NOT my day. It's too bad because today happens to be my sweet Mom's birthday. I hope I am out of this funk by tonight. Enjoy your weekend!

A Thursday Tantrum

  With all of this pregnancy surrounding me all day, every day, everywhere, I wanted to write down a few rants. I get it that pregnancy can for some people be a pain in the ass, I understand that some people just have to complain about it. But, why, WHY would you complain to a woman who for three years has been struggling to become pregnant with a healthy baby? I am on the verge of deleting a lot of social media because of these types of women. I would give anything to be up at night because of morning sickness, I'd love to have vomit/poop/pee on me from my child, and I would give anything to have cankles as a result of my growing baby. One thing infertility has taught me, among all the others, is that pregnancy is a blessing, it's truly a miracle, and not something to take for granted. When that days comes that I become pregnant with a healthy child you can bet your ass that I will be loving every minute of it. In my most recent pregnancy, I smiled the first time I got sick, I was so happy and excited that I cried, I remember texting Blake and my Mom. It was the best feeling for me because that meant that I was pregnant.
  This is not a post to bash women who have terrible morning sickness, or to call out anyone on being a bad parent for publishing to the world that their child just pooped all over their new outfit, I am just simply getting a few things off my chest. Women who have not struggled with infertility just cannot understand, and I know that from experience. Not being able to do the one thing your body was designed to do is heartbreaking, and being exposed to women who are ungrateful about their blessings is nauseating.
  This is not a PSA stating that I hate all pregnant women, believe me. Those of you who know and love me can attest to that. This post is me on a no good, very bad day. Thanks for allowing me to vent.

When Someone Says I'm Jealous

 

 

 

When Someone Says "I know how you feel, I've been trying to get pregnant for three months"

 

 

 

When My Feed is Full of Baby Bump Photos, Ultrasounds Pics, and Baby Pics

 

Source


The Reason Today Has Sucked For Me




When Someone Suggests Adoption




Our Monthly Fertility Treatments

 

 



What I'm Loving Wednesday

 

 

That Fall will be here this weekend!

 

Minnentonka's

 

This Tory Burch bracelet

 

These aTm Toms

Victoria's Secret Bralette

Loving that Boardwalk Empire is back on



These Kendra Scott earrings (aTm colors)
 

 

 



Vitamins

  This is my life. I am taking so many vitamins to improve my fertility. It's ridiculous how many pills I am taking per day. But, I am not complaining, it is so worth it. I will continue taking them even when I finally do become pregnant. They have changed my energy level completely, I am more energized than I ever was before. Here is a list of everything I am currently taking:

• Folic Acid
• CoQ13
• B12
• Vitamin D3
• Vitamin E
• DHEA micronized
• Prenatals
• L-Arginine
• Melatonin

  If you are wondering the dosages you can email me. I am still waiting for my pregnancy hormones to get down to zero before we begin again. We have so much faith that this next cycle will be THE cycle. Your continued prayers are much appreciated.

Weekend Shenanigans

 

 

Well, my weekend kicked off with yours truly being awarded teacher of the week! I got to wear the sash pictured above and all this week I have front row parking! Wa-hoo! When I arrived home on Friday I found my beautiful morning glory has grown quite a bit, I am so impressed as it's the only thing I've ever grown, ever. I spent my Friday the 13th at Target buying stuff I don't need only wanted, and I must admit that I was in bed with my eyes shut at 8:45 that night. I didn't get to watch the movie I had planned on or the Ghost Adventures show. Thank God for DVR!

   On Saturday morning I met my best friend Linzie at the country club. We laid out and got some good sun/vitamin D until the Aggie game started at 2:30. We hung out, watched the game, ate, and then it was over. Second night in a row I was in bed before 9! I think my body was just exhausted, and that is fine with me, I obviously needed it.

   Sunday we were lazy. I had to pick up some vitamins and that was the only outing of the day. It was glorious! We thought it was going to rain, no such luck. Sunday evenings are the best, RHONJ and Boardwalk Empire! Sadly, I fell asleep during Boardwalk but will catch up on it later today before BSF. I hope you had a great weekend as well.

 

 

 

Friday The 13th

 

 

Ok, for real, I love scary movies, t.v shows, and dates. I love Friday the 13th. I can't explain how happy it makes me to have a Friday the 13th in the Fall, I am beyond excited. Perfect timing that Insidious 2 comes out today, I am anxious to go see that movie. Friday the 13th reminds me of my childhood and that is probably one reason I like it so much. I can remember staying up all night watching scary movie marathons on USA, and sleeping on the couch bed downstairs with my siblings. Why is it such a big deal? I don't have the answer, maybe because of the movie with Jason, or because it's supposed to be unlucky? Who knows. I hope to spend this evening watching Insidious 2 followed by Ghost Adventures (t.v. show), but we'll see. Wishing you a very happy Friday the 13th!

 

What I'm Loving: Aggie Edition



 

Love this, have to have it!

Love these boot socks!

 

 

 

 



Thoughts

 

   It's quite obvious that I have been in a writer's funk lately, hence the lack of blogging. I do have a lot on my mind but I have nothing to say. Does that even make sense? I will share just a little...

   Many have asked how I doing since the miscarriage and I will be honest and say that I am handling it emotionally better than our last miscarriage. I feel  a since of calm knowing God is in control of what is to come. Throughout the past three years I haven't felt at peace, I was always stressing about what supplements to take, when to test for ovulation, and various other "tricks" for people suffering from infertility. Now I am more accepting of the challenges God has given us, I am more aware that He will not give up on us, it's comforting. I hope to physically heal from this process sooner rather than later as I am ready for the next step, a BIG step. But, I've waited this long so what's another few weeks?

  Being back at school helps the time pass but I sure do miss my summer! This weekend is something I am looking forward to. aTm will play Alabama which is a big deal and Blake would like to begin prepartying at 8 am (not going to happen). I can't wait to hang out hopefully by the pool with my best friend, and then come home to cheer on the aggies. Gig 'em!



All About Anna

 

This weekend we celebrated Miss. Anna on behalf of her second birthday. I spent the day playing outside in her bouncy house with her, swimming in her mini pool, and then there was the running around. It's moments like that that I cherish. She is so bright, and loving. Even at an early age she has an appreciation for cupcakes, that's my girl!

 

After two cupcakes it was time for an actual cake.

Anna & Mommy.

Mymy and Boot made her this rocking chair.



It Happened Again

  I have been debating on whether or not I wanted to blog about this. I've decided that it's something I need to share.
   This summer we found out that we were expecting, again. I can't describe the mixed emotions that came with seeing that positive pregnancy test. Fear, excitement, caution, and shock but mostly joy. Those of you who have followed our journey know that the past three years have been quite a struggle. Obviously the joy outweighed the fear, but we were quick to be cautious. Blake and I didn't share the news with anyone for fear that somehow we would jinx it. Appointment after appointment we were in awe and full of grace at the miracle God had given us. Each week that passed we were so thrilled to see our little one growing and getting bigger. Then, three weeks ago at one of our regular weekly appointments we discovered that our little one had stopped growing. We were told I would need to have surgery to remove the baby (D&C). My heart sank and the dreams I had for the pregnancy slowly faded away. After my surgery our doctor sent some of the tissue off to be tested, and we will find out soon the cause of our miscarriage. Blake and I will also have the option of finding out the gender, I have mixed emotions about this. We haven't yet named the baby like we did with Asher, I don't know if I want to this time around.
   I had my surgery two weeks ago, and continue to heal both physically and emotionally each day. It isn't easy but with God's grace and mercy I am getting by. We are humbled by the prayers, texts providing comfort, and for all of the love shown to us. This isn't the end of our journey, it's simply just another bump in the road, and with each bump we grow stronger as a couple and our faith in Him gets deeper.
  



What I'm Loving

 

I love instagram, it's one of my favorite apps right now, besides Vine.

 

Fall is my favorite time of year, and I am loving that it is only a few weeks away.

 

 

 

Melrose Place is one of my favorite old t.v. shows. I am enjoying re watching each season on Netflix.

 

 

Absolutely loving this aztec sweater.

 

 

I love these new sharpie pens!

 

This Missoni throw blanket is everything! I'd love to find one.

 

 

 

One of my favorite websites.

 

What are you loving this week?