Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Asher


   On September 7th 2012, our greatest dream came true; we made a baby. Yes, we've been trying for a very long time but with so many negative tests I forgot that one day it would actually be positive! Seeing those two pink lines instantly brought tears of happiness to my eyes. I then had to take a digital to see that word I wanted to be attached to for so long...Pregnant.
   Sadly, I must tell you that last Thursday we lost baby Asher. There are no words to comfort me and you can't truly know what the loss of a child feels like unless you have been in that situation. A person's a person no matter how small and although I am sad,  I am also happy for the time I was pregnant and for the life that was growing inside of me. Asher means fortunate; blessed. 
   There is still a long road of grief we must endure but God has a plan for us and with His blessing it can only get better.

"I fell in love with you while you were forming in my womb. Now I carry you in my heart instead of my arms."

6 comments:

  1. I am so so so sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking, and it never gets easier, but you just learn to deal with it better.

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, girl.

    xo
    SEL

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  2. Oh, Sweetie, my heart breaks for you. I'm lifting you in my prayers and trust it won't be long at all before you're once again elated with positive news.

    Peace and love to you.

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  3. Oh Catherine! I am so sorry to you and your husband! My heart is feeling so much for you both! What a lovely name you have given your baby.
    I know you will both be blessed again.
    Vanessa xx

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear this, Sweet Catherine. My heart is heavy for your loss and I hope you'll take comfort in knowing there are a lot of people who have you in their thoughts.

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  5. I pray and think of you daily- I know that is weird since we have never meet, but I wanted you to know even a stranger is hoping for you to be able to grow your family and how badly you want it! I will keep praying that God will help you heal and bless you again!

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  6. Hi Catherine, We chatted through email a while back but I haven't been blogging or reading blogs lately. I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. It is such an emotional journey, trying to have a baby. Sending you positive vibes for good news very soon! xo

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