Babies. Children. Munchkins. Little Ones. Kids (not a fan of that word). However you say it, I can't stop thinking about them. Other peoples children, and of course my own, you know, the ones I don't even have yet? Well, it's driving me insane. My instagram feed was full of other peoples adorable little ones, their sweet faces, their cozy nurseries, and images of how they spend their days. After not being able to fall asleep whatsoever on Sunday night mainly because I was perusing through other peoples photos I realized that I was fixating on something that I have no control over; God has control. How could I forget? Why am I worrying myself, my time, my energy on something that God has already planned? I then spent the next few minutes un-following those strangers and their children. Next I began thinking about all of the wasted time I spend on Pinterest pinning things for a pregnancy that isn't there. I've decided to put the focus back on my health. Remember when I was picked for a CrossFit challenge? I had to dropout because of the pregnancy, but now I don't have that excuse. It's time for me to start taking care of myself again! I hope that I can once again become distracted in maintaining me, myself, and I.
Um, how adorable are these pictures? The day after Thanksgiving my amazing older sister Elizabeth threw a ridiculously spectacular soiree for my younger sister, Caroline. The celebrated occasion was that of her wedding! I spent most of my night drinking taking pictures in this photo booth. I am a sucker for photo booths. I especially love the ones with my niece, Riley. My favorite memory from the break has to be spending time with both of my nieces. I can't believe how quickly they have already become! I hope you had as nice of a break as I did.
This year (I go by school year when I refer to years) started off slowly and then with the blink of an eye blasted off. I still can't believe it's the week of Thanksgiving. I've spent the morning reflecting on all the blessings I have to be thankful for. I would like to dedicate this post to the blessings God has bestowed upon me.
I am thankful for my husband. I would not have imagined that I could love him more today than I did on the day we said "I do", but it's true. With the recent loss I have come to realize God is preparing us for something "...good and perfect from above". I am thankful that my husband is my best friend and that he is a man of God.
My family is another blessing that I am thankful for. This thanksgiving season I am thankful for their health and presence. They are there for me when I need support, guidance, and unconditional love.
In a time where we are in a recession I am thankful that I have a job I love. I am also thankful to love the people that I work with, especially my sweet friend Erin. Erin is pregnant with her daughter Hayden, and she has been one of my greatest supporters this year.
I'm thankful for my three dogs who cuddle with me each afternoon and all through the night. They love me just because I am me.
This year has been a lesson. God has taught me that I wasn't seeing the entire picture. I focused on the fact that I wanted a child and didn't have one. I forgot about the blessings that were around me, that I already have. So that leaves me with the thing I am the most thankful for; God's eternal salvation and his ever knowing wisdom. I must remember that God has planned everything in my life already and I must trust in His timing.
I hope you count your blessings and remember to be thankful for all that you have.
1. My best quality is my compassion and empathy for all things, both living and non.
2. One of my less flattering qualities is my laziness; it's becoming a problem for me.
3. I'd rather be at home in bed, cuddled up with the mister and the frups.
4. Something I've been challenged with lately is patience! God is giving me a lesson and I am s l o w l y beginning to appreciate it.
5. I am looking forward to doing my best to spoil the mister on his birthday (near future) and obviously becoming a mother (God's timing).
6. A super random factoid about me is I am from a family of seven children; yes, same parents! We are all super close and talk at least once a week. I have the best memories of my childhood and can't imagine life without them.
7. I want to celebrate each day as a gift from above.
This weekend I will be traveling to Austin to celebrate my sister, Caroline. She was married on November 4th in Mexico and we could not attend the wedding. My Godmother is throwing her a post-wedding shower and if it's anything like mine then it will be fabulous! I wish you a wonderful weekend and a very happy Friday!
Do you ever find yourself listening to something, singing along, and then quickly come to the conclusion that you despise said song you are singing so you skip it? It happens to me all of the time, especially with that Goyte song, You Didn't Have to Cut Me Off! (I don't even know if that is the correct title) It got me thinking about the songs I wouldn't dare skip over, and also might not otherwise admit that I jam out to it. However, I confess these 15 songs wouldn't dare ever be skipped over by moi.
fifteen: Hanson, What Christmas Means to Me
This song is one of my most favorite Christmas songs. I went through a major Hanson loving phase and I can still remember the cover of this CD. Listening to this song puts me in a wonderful mood.
fourteen: Hole, Celebrity Skin
Well, I do love Nirvana and when Hole came out as a band I remember sneaking to listen to this song. I can also remember when the video aired on MTV and loving the fact that Courtney had crystals in her hair.
thirteen: Alanis Morissette, Head Over Feet
This was like an anthem for me when I was growing up! I would blast this through my pink record player speakers and dance around my room like a maniac. For whatever reason, I thought I could relate to Alanis Morissette in every single way. Oh, the tween and teenage years...
twelve: Counting Crows, A Long December
I could listen to this song in the middle of June and still feel the power of this hit. A Long December never gets old.
eleven: Lil Wayne, Got Money
Duh. This song got me amped before my wedding and anytime I am feeling depressed or negative I blast this jam throughout my car or in my ear buds.
ten: Britney Spears, I'm a Slave 4 U
Britney Spears is amazing. I love her and she can do no wrong in my book. Like I've said before, it's our job to protect this girl woman.
nine: Rod Stewart, Rhythm of My Heart
I credit my Mom for this one, oh and my PE teacher in elementary school. I can remember jumping on our couch bed watching a Rod Stewart video video. I love this man, so does my Mother, she calls him Rod the Bod.
eight: Backstreet Boys, I Want it That Way
Forget N'Sync I was all about BSB.
seven: Blink182, Feeling This
Love this band, love this song. This album is all I would listen to in the mornings and on road trips.
six: Christina Aguilera, Dirrty
The Yin to Britney's Yang. Disney Darling. Dirrty Xtina. This song will make you move and is great motivation while working out.
five: Dave Matthews Band, Crash
Wedding song.
four: Madonna, Vogue
Classic. Vogue takes me back to my childhood years. My older sister, Elizabeth, idolized miss M and because of that, I liked her as well. Elizabeth used to dance around in a black bra to this song and also told me when she got married she was going to wear a black wedding dress with white lingerie. That never happened, unfortunately.
three: Garth Brooks, Friends in Low Places
First concert I ever went to.
two: Rihanna, Birthday Cake
This is like my favorite song right now. I look like a fool in my car singing along to this.
one: Michael Jackson, Black or White
Bam. I'm a child again. I love this song. It's true that your childhood taste in music forms the type of music you will enjoy the rest of your life. I have only fond memories of Michael Jackson's music.
Up until recently I thought having antlers in your home was tacky. Now, I am fascinated by the different ways used to display these beautiful works of art. Blake is happy because he loves animals (the trophy kind) and when I asked him where I could buy antlers he quickly found several places. I am not interested in killing a deer for it's antlers to be displayed in my home. I would prefer to either find some that have been shed, or buy one from a deer that died of natural causes.
I love how anthroplogie has painted the antlers and wrapped them in yarn. I know out at my parents house I could possibly find some that have been shed, but, while shopping over the weekend, Blake and I found three great looking sets at a flea market. The antler decor is my next project for the house.
Lately I have felt like I want to redecorate the house and de-clutter! Blake will faint when he reads this, but it's true. I am ready to make each room it's own unique treasure. I hope to get started with the de-cluttering and cleaning out of things next weekend. I will most likely spend this week going through my closet room and bedroom bagging items up. My goal is to make myself busy with other projects that I don't have the time to focus on other distractions. God is so good, all the time!
1. I like puppy breath, sugar skulls, and pallets in the living room with my husband.
2. A goal of mine is to become a mother.
3. The last thing you would ever expect me to like (but I do) is probably Lil' Wayne, and maybe the Disney show Good Luck Charlie.
4. Some wise words that I adore are from the Bible,For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11. These words give me hope for a future healthy pregnancy, especially on days like today where that is all that I can think about.
5. Most mornings you will find me wide awake and ready for the day.
6. Right now I am super into Aztec print leggings!
7. Right now I am super over YOLO and people bashing our President.
As I mentioned above my heart is heavy today. Thinking about the holidays makes me uneasy and sad. I'm sad because I want my May baby. I want to experience the holidays with a miracle growing inside of me. I want to post pictures on my instagram and Facebook of my expanding belly. I am being selfish for God had other plans for our baby Asher and for me. I do trust Him and believe in His love for me. For whatever reason today is just harder than yesterday but I know with time it will get better.
Now that the election is over I can breathe a sigh of relief. No more political facebook status's, no more commercials bashing opposing candidates, and no more debates! Television can get back to it's regularly scheduled programs and I can relax. This week has gone by rather quickly and I am not complaining. However, I realized that Thanksgiving is merely two weeks away which means the husbands birthday is also two weeks away. Eek!
It's Ok...
To secretly want to put up Christmas decorations.
To be happy about holiday cups at Starbucks.
To only want a miracle for Christmas (a healthy pregnancy).
To be excited that young adult author R.L. Stein is now writing books for adults. (yay!)
To still watch Gossip Girl and 90210.
To fall in love with my husband more and more everyday.
To do a few days worth of BSF lessons in one day, I am loving the Genesis lessons!
